Come as you are.. beautifully broken

Sorry if this entry is all over the place, but there is a lot going on these days. I'm back at RIT for the spring quarter, one step closer to graduation. I must get a co-op in the summer though, and then I'll be in really good shape.

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How does SU not make the NCAA tournament? There is no logical explanation to why they didn't. All I can think of is that there was a conspiracy to put SU in the NIT to create more publicity for that unpopular tournament. Also notice how there were no Big East representatives on the selection committee. Makes me wonder a bit. To make it worse, they then seed SU #2 in the NIT, with West Virginia being the #1. It just doesn't make any sense to me, or anyone for that matter.

I know you're excited to fill out your NIT Brackets

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In other sports news, the Knicks are making a strong playoff run (they haven't been there in 3 years). I really like how this team plays together and the emotion they show on the court. I'm excited to see how they're going to be in future years. Today they extended Isiah Thomas' contract as both coach and president of the team, which I think is a great move.

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It looks like Shoppingtown Mall is finally going to be renovated. I'm excited for this. That mall has always been my favorite to go to, as I've always liked the atmosphere of it. Check out this link for all the info.

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My grandma hasn't been doing well lately, please keep her in your prayers ♥

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Some excerpts from "Conversations with God" that I thought might spark some thought:


The world is in the condition that it’s in because the world is full of sleepwalkers.

Go ahead and do what you really love to do! Do nothing else! You have so little time. How can you think of wasting a moment doing something for a living you don’t like to do? What kind of a living is that? That is not a living, that is a dying!

Cultivate the technique of seeing all problems as opportunities. Opportunities to...be, and decide, Who You Really Are.

If you want guarantees in life, then you don’t want life. You want rehearsals for a script that’s already been written.
Life by its nature cannot have guarantees, or its whole purpose is thwarted.

The point of life is not to get anywhere—it is to notice that you are, and have always been, already there. You are, always and forever, in the moment of pure creation. The point of life is therefore to create—who and what you are, and then to experience that.

Remember, you are constantly in the act of creating yourself. You are in every moment deciding who and what you are. You decide this largely through the choices you make regarding who and what you feel passionate about.

So—do you want your life to “take off”? Begin at once to imagine it the way you want it to be—and move into that. Check every thought, word, and action that does not fall into harmony with that. Move away from those.

The deepest secret is that life is not a process of discovery, but a process of creation. You are not discovering yourself, but creating yourself anew. Seek, therefore, not to find out Who You Are, seek to determine Who You Want to Be.

although we deal with so much BS every day,

what really matters always shines through the darkness ♥

i know what i must do; my head and heart are in the right place now

sickness and school.. you can't keep me down.

picture courtesy of Michelle Gabel / The Post-Standard

Amen.

I'd give anything to be able to relate to and experience the lyrics of this song.

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Lying here with you,
Listening to the rain.
Smiling
just to see,
The smile upon your face.

And these
are the moments,
I thank God that I'm alive.
And these are the moments,
I'll remember all my life.
I've found all I've Waited for,
And I could not
ask for more.

Looking in your eyes,
Seeing all I need.
Everything you are,
Is everything to me.

And I could not ask for more.

For Jessica

So the Colts won the SuperBowl..

Reasons why I'm glad they won:

• Tony Dungy deserved it
  
• Peyton Manning deserved it
  
• There are many former SU players on the team
  

What was everyone's favorite commercial from the Superbowl?

One of my favorites would have to be this one:

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It's definately crazy how quickly things can change in this life. I don't like it at all..

Monday will be the start of Week 8 (of 11) of this quarter. Things are really starting to pick up and get busy.

It's crunch time.

I'm still not sure whether I'll be taking classes in the Spring or going on co-op. I have a couple more interviews to go in the next few weeks. We shall see what happens.

Other than that, tomorrow is the SuperBowl (finally). I'm hopefully going to Chris' house to watch it. Next weekend is the SU Game at the dome!

Oh, and last but not least:

HAPPY 19th BIRTHDAY LAURA

picture courtesy of c28.com

Sammi's Beauty Box, Salina, is hosting a cut-a-thon to benefit Jessica Musone,
13, who is planning surgery to have a tumor removed from her face. The Syracuse teen has neurofibromatosis, a genetic disorder. The event will be 9 to 11 a.m. Feb. 11 at the salon, 2514 Brewerton Road. The cost will be $10 for men's haircuts and $15 for women's haircuts. All the proceeds, including tips, will go to help pay for Musone's surgery.

I'm not sure many people read this but I want to get the word out somehow.

I read an article in my local newspaper of a young girl in the area needing surgery for her disorder, called neurofibromatosis. This really touched my heart and made me want to reach out and help as much as I could. The surgery costs about $25,000, and the family is well short of their goal.

My goal is to raise over $150 to help cut into the costs of the surgery. I know this isn't much at all, but any bit helps. Save your cans and bottles. Save that spare change. Let's help change this young girl's life!

For more information check out this site. Thank you!

My test today went better than expected (I think).

Damn. It's supposed to be bad tomorrow and I really want to get home after classes.

Anyone else hate winter?

When I saw this secret from LJ Secret, I was like "wow", I often think about this too (especially the middle part). I know it's an unhealthy way of looking at things, but it's hard not to look at it this way.

When will it all make sense?

Once again i'm reminded: Attitude is everything in this life.

A positive attitude will take you far in life. A negative one will not.


Cause everything inside looks like
Everything I hate
You are the hope I have for change
You are the only chance I’ll take

When I’m on fire
When you’re near me
I’m on fire
When you speak
And I’m on fire
Burning at these mysteries
These mysteries..

A m a z i n g how we all want this life a little more everyday -
It's crazy how we pick ourselves up just to let us down anyway.

RIT has shut down today due to the icy weather -- no classes!

This hasn't happened in 8 years.

Excitement

It's so hard to work towards better days knowing that it's only a possibility and not a guarantee. Patience seems to never be an easy thing for me.

I can't wait to feel like Chris Gardner in the Persuit of Happyness, when all his dreams come true. Tears of sorrow become tears of joy, and he can't help but let it all out.

Until everything makes sense again, until everything feels right and falls into place. Yeah, that's what I'm waiting for.

I'd give you the whole world and put it in the palm of your hands. Please take my offer.

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Anyways, heres a mini update of the happenings in my life.

»School is busy as usual. Not looking forward to the two back to back midterms next week.

»Applied for some co-ops this week. Hopefully I hear back from some companies soon. For now, the search continues.

»Search for my princess also continues on :(

»The Knicks are playing pretty well. Curry has been a monster in the middle. Plus they look like they are having fun out there on the court. Go Knicks!

There's never enough time in a day.

This, my friends, is the kind of world we live in:

spoiled

Amazing song. Download it if you've never heard it before.

Blue October ft. Imogen Heap -- "Congratulations"

Is that seat taken
Congratulations
Would you like to take a walk with me

My mind it kind of goes fast
I try to slow it down for you
I think I'd love to take a drive
I want to give you something
I've been wanting to give to you for years
My heart

My heart, my pain won't cover up
You left me.. hu hu hu hu
My heart won't take this cover up
You left me.. hu hu hu hu

I came to see the light in my best friend
You seemed as happy as you'd ever been
My chance of being open was broken
And now you're Mrs. him.

My words they don't come out right
But I'll try to say I'm happy for you
I think I'm going to take that drive
I want to give you something
I've been wanting to give to you for years
My hearts

My heart, my pain won't cover up
You left me.. hu hu hu hu
My heart
My heart won't take this cover up
You left me.. hu hu hu hu

And I can't change this
I can never take it back
But now I can't change your mind
(You left me)

And I can't this
I can never take this back
But now I can't change your mind
Can't change your mind
(You left me)
Can't change your mind
(You left me)
(You left me)
(You left me)
(You left me)

Go away
Make it go away
Please.