Come as you are.. beautifully broken

Many Updates

2007-03-13T05:48:19Z

Sorry if this entry is all over the place, but there is a lot going on these days. I'm back at RIT for the spring quarter, one step closer to graduation. I must get a co-op in the summer though, and then I'll be in really good shape.

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How does SU not make the NCAA tournament? There is no logical explanation to why they didn't. All I can think of is that there was a conspiracy to put SU in the NIT to create more publicity for that unpopular tournament. Also notice how there were no Big East representatives on the selection committee. Makes me wonder a bit. To make it worse, they then seed SU #2 in the NIT, with West Virginia being the #1. It just doesn't make any sense to me, or anyone for that matter.

I know you're excited to fill out your NIT Brackets

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In other sports news, the Knicks are making a strong playoff run (they haven't been there in 3 years). I really like how this team plays together and the emotion they show on the court. I'm excited to see how they're going to be in future years. Today they extended Isiah Thomas' contract as both coach and president of the team, which I think is a great move.

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It looks like Shoppingtown Mall is finally going to be renovated. I'm excited for this. That mall has always been my favorite to go to, as I've always liked the atmosphere of it. Check out this link for all the info.

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My grandma hasn't been doing well lately, please keep her in your prayers ♥

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process of creation..

2007-03-07T05:39:01Z

Some excerpts from "Conversations with God" that I thought might spark some thought:

The world is in the condition that it’s in because the world is full of sleepwalkers.

Go ahead and do what you really love to do! Do nothing else! You have so little time. How can you think of wasting a moment doing something for a living you don’t like to do? What kind of a living is that? That is not a living, that is a dying!

Cultivate the technique of seeing all problems as opportunities. Opportunities to...be, and decide, Who You Really Are.

If you want guarantees in life, then you don’t want life. You want rehearsals for a script that’s already been written.
Life by its nature cannot have guarantees, or its whole purpose is thwarted.

The point of life is not to get anywhere—it is to notice that you are, and have always been, already there. You are, always and forever, in the moment of pure creation. The point of life is therefore to create—who and what you are, and then to experience that.

Remember, you are constantly in the act of creating yourself. You are in every moment deciding who and what you are. You decide this largely through the choices you make regarding who and what you feel passionate about.

So—do you want your life to “take off”? Begin at once to imagine it the way you want it to be—and move into that. Check every thought, word, and action that does not fall into harmony with that. Move away from those.

The deepest secret is that life is not a process of discovery, but a process of creation. You are not discovering yourself, but creating yourself anew. Seek, therefore, not to find out Who You Are, seek to determine Who You Want to Be.

the weight of the world

2007-02-28T04:44:03Z

although we deal with so much BS every day,

what really matters always shines through the darkness ♥

i know what i must do; my head and heart are in the right place now

sickness and school.. you can't keep me down.

Waiting for Spring..

2007-02-16T20:02:14Z

picture courtesy of Michelle Gabel / The Post-Standard

Amen.

This is how I wanna feel..

2007-02-13T03:35:22Z

I'd give anything to be able to relate to and experience the lyrics of this song.

Lying here with you,
Listening to the rain.
Smiling
just to see,
The smile upon your face.

And these
are the moments,
I thank God that I'm alive.
And these are the moments,
I'll remember all my life.
I've found all I've Waited for,
And I could not
ask for more.

Looking in your eyes,
Seeing all I need.
Everything you are,
Is everything to me.

And I could not ask for more.

Keep the support going..

2007-02-08T20:24:00Z

For Jessica

Superbowl XLI..

2007-02-08T03:22:11Z

So the Colts won the SuperBowl..

Reasons why I'm glad they won:

Tony Dungy deserved it
Peyton Manning deserved it
There are many former SU players on the team

What was everyone's favorite commercial from the Superbowl?

One of my favorites would have to be this one:

It's definately crazy how quickly things can change in this life. I don't like it at all..

All I Need Is Some Motivation..

2007-02-04T01:08:48Z

Monday will be the start of Week 8 (of 11) of this quarter. Things are really starting to pick up and get busy.

It's crunch time.

I'm still not sure whether I'll be taking classes in the Spring or going on co-op. I have a couple more interviews to go in the next few weeks. We shall see what happens.

Other than that, tomorrow is the SuperBowl (finally). I'm hopefully going to Chris' house to watch it. Next weekend is the SU Game at the dome!

Oh, and last but not least:

HAPPY 19th BIRTHDAY LAURA

Happy February..

2007-02-02T03:47:33Z

picture courtesy of c28.com

From today's paper..

2007-01-30T22:41:26Z

Sammi's Beauty Box, Salina, is hosting a cut-a-thon to benefit Jessica Musone,
13, who is planning surgery to have a tumor removed from her face. The Syracuse teen has neurofibromatosis, a genetic disorder. The event will be 9 to 11 a.m. Feb. 11 at the salon, 2514 Brewerton Road. The cost will be $10 for men's haircuts and $15 for women's haircuts. All the proceeds, including tips, will go to help pay for Musone's surgery.

Help me help change a life..

2007-01-27T22:12:12Z

I'm not sure many people read this but I want to get the word out somehow.

I read an article in my local newspaper of a young girl in the area needing surgery for her disorder, called neurofibromatosis. This really touched my heart and made me want to reach out and help as much as I could. The surgery costs about $25,000, and the family is well short of their goal.

My goal is to raise over $150 to help cut into the costs of the surgery. I know this isn't much at all, but any bit helps. Save your cans and bottles. Save that spare change. Let's help change this young girl's life!

For more information check out this site. Thank you!

I'm on fire when she's near me..

2007-01-25T03:29:18Z

My test today went better than expected (I think).

Damn. It's supposed to be bad tomorrow and I really want to get home after classes.

Anyone else hate winter?

Thats when you find yourself..

2007-01-19T21:40:55Z

When I saw this secret from LJ Secret, I was like "wow", I often think about this too (especially the middle part). I know it's an unhealthy way of looking at things, but it's hard not to look at it this way.

When will it all make sense?

It's not living if you don't reach for the sky..

2007-01-18T17:29:14Z

Once again i'm reminded: Attitude is everything in this life.

A positive attitude will take you far in life. A negative one will not.

Cause everything inside looks like
Everything I hate
You are the hope I have for change
You are the only chance I’ll take

When I’m on fire
When you’re near me
I’m on fire
When you speak
And I’m on fire
Burning at these mysteries
These mysteries..

From Laura's Away Message..

2007-01-15T20:47:57Z

A m a z i n g how we all want this life a little more everyday -
It's crazy how we pick ourselves up just to let us down anyway.

First time for everything

2007-01-15T13:44:23Z

RIT has shut down today due to the icy weather -- no classes!

This hasn't happened in 8 years.

Excitement

The best is yet to come?

2007-01-14T05:12:07Z

It's so hard to work towards better days knowing that it's only a possibility and not a guarantee. Patience seems to never be an easy thing for me.

I can't wait to feel like Chris Gardner in the Persuit of Happyness, when all his dreams come true. Tears of sorrow become tears of joy, and he can't help but let it all out.

Until everything makes sense again, until everything feels right and falls into place. Yeah, that's what I'm waiting for.

Lets gets crazy, talk about our big plans..

2007-01-10T23:56:47Z

This, my friends, is the kind of world we live in:

spoiled

My words they don't come out right..

2007-01-09T02:13:11Z

Amazing song. Download it if you've never heard it before.

Blue October ft. Imogen Heap -- "Congratulations"

Is that seat taken
Congratulations
Would you like to take a walk with me

My mind it kind of goes fast
I try to slow it down for you
I think I'd love to take a drive
I want to give you something
I've been wanting to give to you for years
My heart

My heart, my pain won't cover up
You left me.. hu hu hu hu
My heart won't take this cover up
You left me.. hu hu hu hu

I came to see the light in my best friend
You seemed as happy as you'd ever been
My chance of being open was broken
And now you're Mrs. him.

My words they don't come out right
But I'll try to say I'm happy for you
I think I'm going to take that drive
I want to give you something
I've been wanting to give to you for years
My hearts

My heart, my pain won't cover up
You left me.. hu hu hu hu
My heart
My heart won't take this cover up
You left me.. hu hu hu hu

And I can't change this
I can never take it back
But now I can't change your mind
(You left me)

And I can't this
I can never take this back
But now I can't change your mind
Can't change your mind
(You left me)
Can't change your mind
(You left me)
(You left me)
(You left me)
(You left me)

Go away
Make it go away
Please.

This Is How A Heart Breaks

2007-01-08T04:32:29Z

Sports can be so heart-breaking. Hell, maybe life is just one big heart break.

Back in Rochester with too much to do and little time to do it. Let's see how much I can push myself this time around.

Not sure if I should go home Friday for the Marino signing or not? I guess it depends on the weather.

These posts are kind of like my mind -- a mess.

Lord, give me a sign..

Things will get better, this I promise you..

2007-01-06T02:56:06Z

I need more time, energy, luck..

Words too.

Since I don't have any words tonight, I leave you with a quote that I thought tied in well with this chapter of my life:

We grow great by dreams... Some of us let these great dreams die, but others nourish and protect them; nurse them through bad days till they [flourish]; bring them to the sunshine and light, which comes always to those who sincerely hope that their dreams will come true.
-- Woodrow Wilson --

Waiting for my dreams to flourish..

Just a chance that maybe we'll find better days..

2007-01-05T17:41:58Z

One of the hardest things in this life is patience. It is difficult living in hopes of a better future and not what you have here in the present; wanting so much for things to be different, but knowing you must wait and hope they will be one day. How can you pick yourself up each morning to face another day? Hope is such an important thing to have, to hold on to, to cherish. It is what ultimately keeps us going each and every day. I must be patient, focused, and mentally strong.

Today I became motivated again to pick up my guitar and really put my all into learning it. This motivation came about at Sacred Melody with Meghan. Its something I've always told myself I'm going to do and I believe it's now or never.

In other news, Little Miss Sunshine is such a great movie. Go rent it if you haven't seen it yet. I must finish it in the morning.

You know what? Fuck beauty contests. Life is one fucking beauty contest after another. School, then college, then work... Fuck that. And fuck the Air Force Academy. If I want to fly, I'll find a way to fly. You do what you love, and fuck the rest

Goodnight.

Love comes when you least expect it..

2007-01-04T05:55:16Z

I can't help but be jealous of happy couples and sad when I hear love songs on the radio.

Hopefully one day those songs will take on a whole new meaning for me.

Where, oh where, is my angel?

Another day slips away...

2007-01-03T03:32:49Z

I don't know how much more rejection or disappointment I can handle, but I know I must hold back no longer and go out on a leap of faith. So that's what I'm going to try my best to do.

Anyways, I forgot to post this pic of my cute goddaughter yesterday:

Today involved lunch with the family, buying a shirt at AE, and watching Rescue Me. Tomorrow looks like more shopping (and hopefully a better LJ entry).

Another day slips away
And I get this feeling like nothing has changed
But these years keep coming like waves
They wash over me day after day
I just watch them rolling by
Standing here beneath the sky

And I can't hold the hands of time
They will move like they will move
But I can hold your hand in mine
Give my time, give my heart
It's all that I can do

Another night is flying by
Somebody's born, and somebody dies
I wanna look deep in your eyes
I wanna lie and I want to cry

And I can't hold the hands of time
They will move like they will move
But I can hold your hand in mine
Give my time, give my heart
It's all that I can do

Two Thousand And Seven

2007-01-02T00:53:03Z

I was going to complain about 2006, but realized that its not going to change anything that occured last year. Complaining gets both you and I nowhere.

Ah, 2007. I have a feeling that this is a make or break year. I am due for a stellar year without any steps in the wrong direction. A year with zero regrets. Only I can make this happen, however, and that's the scary part of it all.

I know what I have to do -- It's just a matter of following through and remaining focused.

I've decided I'm going to write an entry a day in this journal in 2007. I believe it will help me stay focused and in touch with myself. It will ultimately be a reflection of the year's events that I can look back upon.

Maybe I can get more friends on here, too, since I know Jenn is the only one who reads this thing.

Last night I went over to Jay and Jesse's new house with Steph to celebrate New Years.
Today was pretty uneventful, although I did get some school things done.

God Bless,
Greg

And here we go there’s nothing left to choose
And here we go there’s nothing left to lose